另一个世界

我。。。也曾经拥有过吗？

2011-10-17T07:58:00.000-07:00

很多人说，青春是该热血地，无遗憾地过，
至少，我最近爱上的那个故事是这么告诉我的。。
男孩用了八年追了女孩
我用了六年暗恋一个男孩（很不一样吧。苦笑）
从国一就同班到了中一才发现自己喜欢上他。。
后来猜想，也许是个错觉，一个令我到现在每当想起都会遗憾的一个错觉。
男孩说不应该为尴尬而失去勇气
也许我当初应该更勇敢，更勇敢地去面对他
但。。即使那位男孩的故事是真实的，
也因为女孩也对他有一丝的喜欢，只是他们错过了彼此。
而我的。。则不是那么一回事（痛）
不能怪人，在旁讽刺，嘲笑，不能怪他，怪他不珍惜我们之间的友谊，
一起跳班，一起较高下，一起同班过六年，拥有同一位很关心我们的老师份上，
就算不能接受我的心意，也可以成为朋友啊！
你！真的很幼稚！超级无敌的幼稚！
可是，每当我想起你，我的心还是会微微地揪一下。
还好，至少那位男孩与女孩有过一段美好，而且闻名全亚洲的一段
轰轰烈烈的青春的爱情故事。。。
我。。。可以算曾经拥有过吗？自己所谓的青春曲。

梦想

2011-07-09T09:23:00.000-07:00

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么，人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看多少人为自己的生命努力勇敢地走下去
我们是不是该知足，珍惜一切就算没有拥有

不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的
得不到梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色

笑一个吧
功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫着意义

让我继续有努力奋斗的心情

24节令鼓的由来

2011-03-26T23:02:00.000-07:00

今天发现的，觉得好有趣所以决定跟大家分享。

春季立春（2月3-5日交节）雨水（2月18-20日交节）惊蛰（3月5-7日交节）
春分（3月20-22日交节）清明（4月4-6日交节）谷雨（4月19-21日交节）
夏季立夏（5月5-7日交节）小满（5月20-22日交节）芒种（6月5-7日交节）
夏至（6月21-22日交节）小暑（7月6-8日交节）大暑（7月22-24日交节）
秋季立秋（8月7-9日交节）处暑（8月22-24日交节）白露（9月7-9日交节）
秋分（9月22-24日交节）寒露（10月8-9日交节）霜降（10月23-24日交节）
冬季立冬（11月7-8日交节）小雪（11月22-23日交节）大雪（12月6-8日交节）
冬至（12月21-23日交节）小寒（1月5-7日交节）大寒（1月20-21日交节）
二十四节气歌

春雨惊春清谷天，夏满芒夏暑相连，秋处露秋寒霜降，冬雪雪冬小大寒。

每月两节不变更，最多相差一两天，上半年是六、廿一，下半年是八、廿三。

节日节令

春社立春后第五个戊日
秋社立秋后第五个戊日　
入梅芒种后第一个丙日
出梅小暑后第一个未日
初伏夏至后第三个庚日
中伏夏至后第四个庚日
末伏立秋后第一个庚日
九九自冬至起八十一天

二十四节令歌

打春阳气转,雨水沿河边.
惊蛰乌鸦叫,春分沥皮干.
清明忙种麦,谷雨种大田.
立夏鹅毛住,小满雀来全.
芒种五月节,夏至不纳棉.
小暑不算热,大暑三伏天.
立秋忙打靛,处暑动刀镰.
白露烟上架,秋分无生田.
寒露不算冷,霜降变了天.
立冬交十月,小雪地封严.
大雪河叉上,冬至不行船.
小寒杀年猪,大寒过后又一年.

Source：http://www.agri-history.net/history/24%20seasons.htm　

2011-03-26T04:51:00.000-07:00

已经是第第三天了
当天打鼓的心情隐隐约约地
浮现，鼓谱一直都出现在脑海中
昨天，把“寒露”送回去
才知道我们本可以在还鼓前可以打多一次
知道后，唯一遗憾就印在心中了
不过，值得庆幸的是
我。。
打过鼓了
在毕业之前。。
打过鼓了
刚刚看了其他的节令鼓表演
还是觉得阿弟的风格是最棒的，
可能是习惯了吧，
从“鬼”到“学生”到“执着”，
都是那么地精彩。。
希望能一直延续下去。。

2011-03-15T13:29:00.000-07:00

不知为何地，
觉得自己变得越来越渺小，
是我的错觉吗？
还是我被遗弃了？
算了，习惯就好
我所学到的是，
只要做回自己的本分就好，若没必要也不要出声
那。。才不会受到伤害，
这叫自我保护。。

无论如何忙碌，不开心，但。。
开心的事总会有的。。
练习舞蹈的时候我很开心，
即使已经是很累但我还是能撑下去。
这想法，在不久之前，在我参加鼓队的时候我的确是有这份感觉，
我一直以来都很仰慕的一个表演，
既有文化价值，更能振奋人心。。
可是，可能自己无用，想抓紧这想法。。
这“想要振奋人心，受到认同”的想法
拼命地抓拼命地抓。。
它也慢慢溜走。。

我会坚持下去的。
当鼓声咚。。咚。。响时，一切又会回到从前

婷，江国豪，
我好想念你们两个。。
希望你们过得好，
今天不知明天事，
所以，我想趁机表露我的感觉，
爸，妈，哥，姐，
我爱你们哦~
还有我的好友们，我也很珍惜我们的友谊哦。

p/s:写完这篇文章后，其实觉得自己也蛮怕寂寞一下。不过，算了，还是同样的一句，习惯就好。

家

2011-01-29T21:32:00.000-08:00

很开心地又回到家了。
能开心得骑着脚踏车到处去玩，
能开心地吃家的食物，小吃，
当然，在家也能为所欲为，哈哈！
大声地唱歌，练鼓谱，滚来滚去，看电视，
当然最重要的是，能和家人一起，喝早茶，吹吹水，
等待着新年的到来。
可能是很普通，
对我来说，这就是快乐。
在此祝大家新年快乐，健健康康，
快快乐乐，读书的，学业猛进（大学的更是每学期就4！）
工作的，升级加薪水！

这是我另一个世界

2011-01-24T06:40:00.000-08:00

忽然间觉得
偶尔
英语
也会有令我传达不了我的心语
因此，这。。
将会是我以另一个语言把我所想的说出来。

2009-08-18T03:44:00.000-07:00

Just wanna tell u all that i have moved to http://dreamyht.wordpress.com/..but thr's nothing yet..but do come after some time..thank you..

Life lately..

2009-07-17T20:46:00.000-07:00

Life's been great lately. Although it's busy as I'm taking 21 credit hour but I feel my everyday is meaningful. Sometimes I go jogging (which I never do till start of this semester), sometimes I go to library, sometimes I go to b201. Although I don't quite like not having enough personal space but somehow I still can bear with it..What I can't bear now is I WANT TO WATCH HARRY POTTER!!!!>.<

Yesterday night went to KFC with Juin, Lou, Elen, Shu Yeen and Wei Quan. Nice outing since it's been a while since we hang out like this. And, a strange encounter afterwards...When Juin and I was a little behind our friends, chatting while walking back to our college, suddenly, I heard low growling sound, instantly Juin and I grab our hands together and run!! Right after we slowed down I looked back as I thought that sound was from a dog. But when I looked back there's nothing. A few seconds later, Elen and Shu Yeen also went in front of us as Elen heard something as well. In the end, we managed to get back to college with puzzled and curious mind.

This morning, me, Elen and Pak Koon went jogging at 8am. Then later on we're going to Bon Odori Festival. Story will be continued.......

Back from Kampar~

2009-07-14T02:57:00.000-07:00

Came back from Kampar on Sunday, brought back lots of 'Sak Ke Ma' for friends. Had a great weekend with my dad and mum ^ ^ Although it's just 2 days, but it's blissful. To have the chance to spend time together with my parents.

Overall, nothing interesting happen during these few days so there's nothing there to write. So..toodles..

Realisation day!!

2009-07-10T06:16:00.000-07:00

Thought that everytime change will be the same, just minor pain. But I just realise that things wont always be the same. This time it's hurtful, with no one there to help me. Now I know that the saying "Want pretty don't want life" is true. Haha. But anyway, I'll endure it in order to get nice smile. Keke.

Anyway, hopefully tomorrow I can go back Kampar for at least one day. Miss daddy. I'm just a small kid but my face doesn't show. Oh well, born to be matured-looking, cannot change anything.

Yesterday was adventurous and exciting. Won't forget it! Gathering with juniors (Taca-hope that I spelled correctly, Miki, Elena, Angela, Jeremy, Wai Mun and Katherine)? Nope, but it is very enjoyable. We went Cosmic World and had a competition- Seniors Vs Juniors. Sadly, we lose. No matter! Process is far more better than result. Next, we bring down around Mid Valley and last stop was Delicious. The pasta there was superb just like the name! The adventurous trip was actually because of sending our beloved Kirky Krys back to Serdang and got lost on the way. In the end, I managed to get back college by 1130pm. Thanks to our Horny Wai who have to drive here and there just to get us back home. Thanks Wai!!

Hopefully our Senior plans will be able to carried out for the Juniors!! New Era for the English Department is COMING!!!

Mode: Hibernating-------->Active(JUST my BLOG)

2009-07-07T08:10:00.000-07:00

Haha..After long sleep for 2 months (just like hibernation), my blog's finally awaken. As mentioned by my friend, my biggest day had long past..TIME TO UPDATE!!! Wakaka, sorry la har, very lazy during holidays.

However, one thing's active is just my blog. My mood not really up to level. After all the cramming and squeezing and losing my "beautiful" vision of rolling about in my own room for this semester, I have to accept that college is really disappointing. Not to say in every aspect but at the very least, our accomodation, I'm willing to sacrifice food if I were given choices to do so. But this is just merely an imagination which is not going to be true. Therefore, just have to countdown till that day arrived! Starting from tomorrow till 25 August according to the administer of college..Hope for the change to come soon!!!

Was having fun at Japanese class this noon, listening to friends' and others' excited topic (to be more precise is saying hiragana is difficult) during the class was going on. While I was hoping to learn kanji and grammar soon, as I've been through this. Well, actually can assume it as revision so still acceptable. Well, that's all for now.

"Biggest" day!!

2009-04-22T19:29:00.000-07:00

Literally, it is my biggest day where according to certain people, I can get what I want. Yesterday I celebrated my burpday with exam, coursemates, and friends!! (thank you all who wished me!) Went to Mid with Moon, Krystle and Cheang. Then had a heavy (till dinner also won't feel hungry) meal at Kim Gary. Then from planned to watch movie ended up window shopping to shopping. But only me, Moon and Krystle went shopping as Cheang left to 'pursue' his food~ I bought a pair of sandals which I liked very much. Rubber~ish and whity white, even the name I like - Caspia. Despite some disappointment I got from some of my bffs (maybe they're busy in exam), feel very satisfy, one of my dream celebration of burpday. One is surprise by my friends ( already in 9th Apr 09), other one is shop with friends during my birthday, one more..SECRET~~

After reached college, had donut dinner and bathe before going ABC~ thought don't want go but since my friend who hasn't been going there for ages so I go. After went there, again got surprise~~really happy~~ after receive my presents I feel very awkward as they celebrated my birthday many times so..however, very sweet and warm as my friends really plan a lot! Love ya all~~ I received a cake, a big burpday handmade card with all their wishes, twilight huge poster, and if not mistaken Twilight dvd..

And my mummy also celebrated with me~~We went shopping and she treated me Hong Kong restaurant then Rotiboy. H.A.P.P.Y~~

Update (cont.)

2009-04-12T18:13:00.001-07:00

2010

Went down bb (aka study room) to finish up research paper with Krystle. Go ABC as promised (Lou "booked" me at the day before) together with Krystle, Juin, Khar Kee. Moon "abandoned" me for the sake of her family..Hmph!! hehe... As soon as we reached there, a muffin was given, with a candle on it~~so sweet..happy!! then ah Lynn said, "we are not kiam siap one, got cake for you.." Felt so warm, my friends celebrated birthday with me. Then, Lou came out running and "puff", the cake box dropped to the floor..!!!!!!!!! All of us including me were so surprised but the important is Lou hurt or not. Thankfully she's not. Later, she revealed the trick which was just ah Keng's pencil case in it..Chai brought the real one out..Literally "gotcha"..hehe..Play
cream" war!!

My personal thought...

Really didn't think of it, they said that they'd been asking what cake I like for he whole day yet I don't feel anything was wrong. It's a plot!! Hehe..I knew there was something when Lou "booked" me but instead cake..em..sorry la har..Too CD that day because super tired..anyway, thanks everyone, sorry didn't get to treat you all as that moment I'm broke.. Will have chance in future~~Thanks!!

Juin, Lou, Lynn, Elen, Krystle, Chai, Ang, Keng, Khar Kee, Cheang.

Apr 11

1730

Get ready and wait for guys as usual. Wonder why guys in 3rd RC make girls wait everytime.

Anyway, they're advertising their favs - Revive and Vitagen while waiting..

On the way to Stadium, I'm super exhausted till slept soundly without noticing being taken photo..

2100

Ate something to fill hunger. I have no idea at all what was I thinking to have that look.

After eating, we managed to grab seats in the humungous indoor stadium with beautifully decorated stage. Excited and enthusiastic!! Finally, the play started. My Angel is there..So near yet so far~ With all the beautiful voices, with all the sound effects, the Easter story- He is alive!! made me cried and touched by His kindness.Lastly, after the show, we went to the nearest and waved at our Angel and she heard us and came down.

Our Angel, Belle belle~ She hugged us and "rejoice" also. How happy and excited she is!!

Lastly, we left and reached at about 2230 and went to Sahur to fill up their growling stomach while I sat there eat some from Moon's and some from Juin's as my throat's not feeling well. Went back at 2330 as really sleepy while Lou they all went taking a stroll. Ended with a good sleep.

Update...

2009-04-12T17:31:00.000-07:00

Recently been quite busy with all the assignments and exam's coming soon..however, now want to spend some time updating my "world".

Apr 16

1030

Today was an super unusual day!!unusual as in like I woke up, get ready and walk to PPUM (Hospital UM) which is from 3rd RC to PPUM (anyone who stays in campus will know the distance..) After sweating like crazy, I reached the dental faculty, CLOSED at 1100??!!! WTH!!! After asking for direction, the admin counter's people told me that I should have gone to student's counter instead of waiting there. So, there I went and booked an appointment. After suffering from walking so far, I thought ask shortcuts from nurses. Who knows they just make me walk more!! However, I got to wander around medic fac and went to their library..Man it was superb!! So, after a long hour, I managed to get myself back into campus. Still managed to go to Treasurer's office and got my statement printed out..

1330

Reached RC finally, dragging myself back to room and cook SHIM RAMYEON~~counted the money to be distributed during APK presentation later. DANG!! got confused AGAIN!!!

1410

Going to be LATE for LIT class!! walked a bit faster, managed to reach but still late of course. Luckily class was just about to start. Really going to miss 3 cool lecturers which are Dr. Surin, Dr. Jagdish and Ms. Mac. Thank you all. Miss Dr. Stef, Dr. Evelyn & Dr. Park too. Class ended~=(

Dr. Jagdish

Ms. Mac

1830

APK presentation started. Before this, got help from Belle and Krystle and my saviour- Ah Lou to help me distribute the money. Thanks a lot darlings~~muackzz.. Then, presentation ended at 1930. Ate dinner together with Moon, Krystle, Ash and Megan.

The Starry Sky(Japanese translated to English)...

2009-04-10T01:28:00.000-07:00

Sad feelings, starry night sky again tonight
I wish upon a shining star, so...
Trouble is always never-ending
But the door has already been opened
You gave me strength to stand up when I'm stepped on, or I fall
I sing to become a star I can be proud of
I will try harder than ever because I want to be stronger
Steady love, such precious love
I cherish you more than anybody else
I have some unsure nights but
We keep on living without losing

*meaningful lyrics by HALNA

High School Mates..

2009-04-06T07:41:00.001-07:00

Misses them and see them will be able to cheer me up!!Miss the days where I slept in class, eat icecreams together, play toilet key, bowling, fool around, play cards....sob sob sob!!

Me, Kelly, Lai Mei, Hsu Wai(during Malam Sekalung Budi)

me n lai mei Hsu Wai n Irene (BBQ farewell..rainy night..)
Ah Lin, Mei Mei, Ting Ting
Dharma Dass

my classmates n CCY (his farewell)

Seminar=bored??NOT!!!

2009-04-04T22:58:00.000-07:00

0630
After dwelling with sleepiness, defeated..(thought can study a bit..T_T)

0820
Finally woke up and ask friend keep a place for me, drag myself..Thought I'll be late yet I'm not.HAPPY!!

0900
Class started and I was thinking of how to hide myself later when I want to sleep. Start off quite sleepy, managed to kill the sleep bug with the help of some funny slides. He mentioned that letar on will have treasure hunt!!(Ooh..long time didn't play already..looking forward------) My attention grew stronger and stronger when listening to next lecturer. How cool was that if she's teaching us for APK?never know and don't wanna know(don't want to meet this subject again!!). However, I learned quite a lot from today's seminar including how to 'sell' ourselves..After this seminar, I get to know what type of job we can get after graduate and some useful skills.

1100
Around this time we had a break to eat some food provided by our faculty. 20mins later, the facilatitors( they called themselves + I don't know one of their names) asked us to gather according to groups. I'm in same group with Krystle while other friend in the 1st group. When the riddle was given, we set off with 2 given compasses for further usage.

Our leader (Nuril) was not chosen at the first place, rather to say born later during the 2nd clue. While I am the directionist together with other Malay girl (forgot her name). During the hunt, we got
help from the facilitator-En. Abdul Rahim and managed to get to final stage as 2nd team. We have to cooperate with other 2 teams to get our treasures. After 2 trials and errors and chance from fasi, we managed to get our treasures-salted biscuits and mineral water (to others may be nothing but for me, it's priceless) Those who look at surface might not understand it. Some went missing during the hunt as we took other way to Inai room but in the end manage to unite.

My Thoughts
Some really self-centered, really ashamed of myself as a Chinese because I share the same ethnicity with them. Princesses!! so hot, tiring, fast..think what? Catwalk??!! Hello??!!! We're having a hunt here..c-o-m-p-e-t-i-t-i-o-n..not working as a team not willing to participate, "let the Malays take all the compasses la.."gosh..however, there are many who were participating..and this is my own opinion only. Conclusion, unity among races still have a long way to go..gambateh!!

APK

2009-03-30T06:24:00.000-07:00

Well...Though today's already 30th March (!!!!next month exam!!!!!...x.x...), but that doesn't mean I can't talk about the past, can't I? Hmm...where to start?? Let's see...

25th
Today, as usual, we continue our bookmarks at night.. That evening sucks, think I'm the worst leader ever in history. Have to let my group members present in a completely blank idea of how to present..here I wish to say, "Sorry!!Gomenasai!!" (learn from mistake, hopefully I won't be like that in future..hmm..sequential behavior??) And today's really a hectic day as later that night there'll be a choir competition (in the end didn't win but who needs it?? I enjoyed singing a lot!!!) After choir, went to help my team mates till 2am being shooed by authority so shifted to tv room.. During that whole night, I was like walking dead and can even sleep while standing!!

26th
7am
Finally finished!!Bearing the panda eyes, went back and have a quick nap as today's the APK day. Ended up being late again, but luna was like totally out of battery. So after charging for a while longer than us, she reached our stall. That day, as a so-called "hot sexy model" (hehe..named by qiang..), getting business.

4pm
Around this time, rain started to pour heavily, our only floor whereby we just sat to have a nap are wet!! Out of frustration, me, Krystle and Moon went to KPS. From a corner to a corner and lastly found a nice corner and slept until don't feel like moving.

530pm
Reached college, fetch by Belle Belle. Settle things, grab toiletries, bathe, calculate earning of the say, night night till the other day!!

PTH...over...

2009-03-10T20:48:00.000-07:00

This morning at 12.30am, finally over..Followed by the cheers, PTH IV had come to an end..My mum came over to see my performances and yet I lost my temper and treat her a bit bad..Sorry mummy. It's hard when the pth is coming as my ankle hurt at the night before yesterday's performance..I felt so worried that I might be wasting my effort. In the end, my ankle got better and I managed to perform quite well. Got some compliments and some bad comments, I'll improved for the bad comments and do better for the compliments!!!
Sure gonna miss my dancing sisters and mamma-san and also Muo Gu aka mushroom (haha..) just like how I am going to miss my PR sisterhood. But, life still has to go on. Can't keep living the same life or it might just ended up like a vampire.(hey..not a bad idea, cool, but I kind of scared of eternity so..better just stay how it is)
So now have to catch up all my studies and assignments..Aza aza hwaiting!!

Recalling...

2009-03-02T08:32:00.000-08:00

Though today's already 2nd if March, but still, I wanted to make my recall..Morning slept at 4am woke up at 8 (thanks to my best bud..(sms to wake me up)) What a miracle! I can wake up at 8! Then presentation got bit nervous but compared to the first time during my ethnic relation at the 1st semester, this is superb! During class, I gave letter then set back to college to start preparing for the "day".

Thanks to my temporary fashion consultant aka pal pal, I managed to have a dress to wear. "Creative-and-innovative" thing..Duh..anyway, because seriously lack of sleep, soon as I got into the van I dozed off. I guess only the excitement that's keeping me awake during that day.

Finally..THE Summit Hotel (repeated dunno how many zillion times already). Get up room put our stuffs then start helping out the others. Around 5, get back to own room and getting ready, and since I'm ready, I just sat around corner to enjoy their preparation of making up, rushing here and there,..felt cute..just like in the movie..

Zapp..It has begun..Students came group by group, some didn't even recognise..scared me! Thought I'm too ugly, but luckily it's because I've never make up so they can't recognise me. Managed to take pictures with the early comers. I've been waiting for Luna to come but then I didn't get to see her until she came to find me and the last time I saw her was when I went to find her, really like a vip (but indeed she is a "vip".."I'm so sorry but I love you 바라지마..")

Then, after a while I've already totally ignored whether got VIP coming or not then straight go inside and play then out then in then out...In the end, we OCs get to eat at VIP table as they left already, then "there can be miracles~~when you believe.."~~that's the end, following the song all started to snap photos with people around before the buses arrive to fetch them back while we, OCs, have to stay to eat "supper" instead of dinner. At last, I'm really at the level of 10% when I board the bus and straight away sleep without wasting time..

Till the very end, ended up "memory full" with Juin posing for my very last phone memory for then..sweet..

Cracking..

2009-02-23T21:37:00.000-08:00

2 more days to that "grand" event, so the tension being put on also "grand"..Emotional control also in bad situation, so yesterday night a line is crossed..It's not that I want to fingerpoint or what..It's just that, I mean, everyone is in tense mood, bad mood (mainly cause by lack of sleep). So, don't just shout at people, though familiar with the temper and attitude but sometimes not evry moment every second people can endure. Sometimes I think word is better than speak, if tell, surely will go into a fight and I complain to everyone around me because if I straight tell surely will come to a fight. Don't push me to the limit. My limit is not far yet not near so...
I'm 100% sure that I wont enter MAK if given chance in the future. So torturing. Even crew also feels like that, how about the leaders??But still, human is selfish. In some circumstances they just can't care for everyone. People do want to complain, throw tantrums etc. I mean if true friends, they surely will definitely understand. Anyway, I think it's my own problem, when I mix with certain people, I don't feel like it used to be. Is it something has changed? Is it me who've changed or is it I'm being hated, being thought very troublesome?? I can't help but keep thinking that. Why Taurus must have this as one of the qualities? Why cant I be exception from that general Taurusian?
Now, I just want to finish my assignments and catch up my studies.I really wanted piano very much. Part of me hanging on the cliff of "give up", part of me floating through clouds, vivid yet vague..following the wind....

Talk about the past...

2009-02-19T17:19:00.000-08:00

I forgot to mention a few of the interesting activities in college for last few weeks. Firstly, there was this ponggal, actually it was not meant to participate intentionally as I know nothing about it. I came back from lecture and see all the funny pots beside so under the curiosity, I've joined that activity.

And it turned out to be challeging yet enjoyable. It ended up..not quite successful but still..memorable. First time taking part in acitivity related to other culture and...well, not bad..Next, MAK is around the corner, I wore Punjabi suit to attend that event as the theme of the event was middleeast so we have to wear traditional clothes.

On Valentine's day, while everyone is lovey doveying..I woke up at 12pm (can guess whether I'm related to this "day".On that night, I went to Indian dance show before joining friends gathering which is organized by C n S. It happens to be..em..kinda bored but overall still okay..Then, we dismiss at 2am. So, though all the busy'ness', still manage to gets some fun from it thankfully. Looking forward when I know how to play piano nicely.

BIG decision

2009-02-18T18:28:00.000-08:00

I have come to make an important decision. I've struggled for a whole week to make this decision. I'd decided to quit quan zhong hua. For the past few days, I was covered with guilt, responsibility, tension, all the whatsoever negative aura seems to dance around me.Maybe it's because all the MAK, PTH, Actual and bla bla bla...just..just seems too much..way too much for shoulders to support the weight. For me, my passion is towards piano, and I got a golden opportunity as my roommate knows, S knows, K knows and they are willing to teach me. I should be thankful and must practice hard.

But, things doesn't go the way we wanted. All the assignments that are coming nonstop seems to take away all my time. Now, it's always wake up, class, lunch, class, assignments, class, meeting, activities, sleep and repeat. Now that I feel relax that I've decided to quit it.

Whirlpool..

2009-02-12T22:48:00.000-08:00

Swoosh..swoosh..air!!air!!I need some air..not that I'm greedy..I'm stucked!!I'm caught in a whirlpool..who can save me??!!anybody?anyone?all the things are hitting me..even sand, a small thingy in that whirlpool didn't bother to spare me from hitting.."it's just a small whirlpool",someone told me..I recall back..no feelings, always felt something pressed on my chest, barely give me chance to relax.Am I really happy in front of people?Am I?I don't know..don't want to know..A small part of me said, "aren't you're the one who doesn't want to let go??who to blame for your own greediness??who to blame that you felt guilty for your own speech?"when is it going to end?whirling..whirling..swoosh..swoosh..endless whirling........
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New Year has GONE~

2009-02-02T21:51:00.000-08:00

Cant imagine how fast time passes, feels like just went home yesterday..I don't want to face the fact that uni has restarted again..Though during CNY there's something happened, dunno whether was my fault or his..always neglect me..only can see him once in a blue moon but still no communication.I mean, at least update what had happened to each other during the year..but, him? NEVER..Till that very last day which he left, something broke..the moment till he left, never look back..That's it..Guess that's where the description of broken glass came in, once broken, everything changes..I don't know how he thinks, but I..I..*sigh*

Back to the story, LOST..new year-GONE, homework-LOST..lots to catch up..inflection, compounding,etc..research paper, apk, titas..OMG!!hopefully I can survive through this semester as this is just merely the beginning of the "bright" future..Aza aza hwaiting~

Chinese New Year is coming!!!

2009-01-21T19:38:00.000-08:00

This is the first time in this year I started to blog, lately been very lazy and my life is such a mess!!(though now still in mess) All the assignments, college activities..only one word can describe-disaster..luckily, now thr's cny so I can relax!!Yippie~~

And there's one big change in my sem 2 life!! Is that I've join QZH4!!!(which I don't plan to join for this sem) But actually it's a meaningful activity, I learned a lot from there..and this year, most of my closest friends in QZH3 are going to graduate, some don't wan2 join anymore..how sad!!Nothing can last forever~~have to accept the fact..*sigh*

Anyway, since next week is our 2nd most important festival in Chinese tradition, I'm here to wish all people HaPPy ChInEse NeW YeAr~~GoNG xi FA ChaI!!